shit, i been havin this type of dream for a long time. Now Im pregnant, and its even crazier. My moms told me that when u prego u have CRAZY dreams, and the shit is true. Ill give u just a real quick run down of some of the ones i can remember...
Last night i dreamed that i was in some kind of huge group fight, like my team against the other team, watever that was...And it was just a mad violent war type fight...we were all runnin around killin and stabbin each other with these big ass hunting and boning knives and shit...I got my thumb cut off...Becuz somehow the other team had all these great weapons and my team didnt have none....I was wrestlin down on the ground with this other broad who had this little tiny really sharp knife and she kept tryin to cut my eyes out...
Another one would be when I got lured into some kidn of brokedown-ass crackhouse type of place full of a group of "lost boys" type of kids. They all was like, the typical "bad kids" back in school--the 4th-grader who tortures neighborhood animals, etc..except they had all grown up to their late teens, a lil yonger than me, and they were mega sociopaths, like they had grew up to just have NO regard at all for human life...So I got shot in the chest with a HUGE gauge shotgun that made these giant-ass holes in my chest, and with each shot i could feel the life leaving out of my body...then i died, but my presence was still there in my dead body, and i started movingaround and they freaked out and all started laughin, so they started torturing my dead body with like ice picks thru my skull and shit like that. finally they got tired of it, and they tok my body and stuffed it into a dryer, pourd gasoline on it and lit it on fire....
Then another one i remember where i got trapped in this abandoned house that had got burned down in the 80s, and i was there with a class, it was like a class trip or somethin, and the ppl who had supposedly died in the fire, it turned out that they were still alive...and as we was abotu to leave, they came back and showed up at the site of the burnt down house and wanted to kill us all for some reason...they had big ass guns and put the gun to my head and the rest of the ppl i was with, and we all had to lay down on the ground while they poured gas on us and lit us on fire and we burnd to death (IDK the deal with the repetition of the gas/fire shit)
Ive had 2 or 3 dreams i can remember of bein stuck/trapped inside a cow slaughterhouse, but it wast just ur regular factory, it was like a "evil" slaughterhouse, the kind that would be in a horror moviie, they alway slooked super randown and old and dilapidated and dirty and dark and blood coverin everything, really old , creaky-ass broke down machines tearin apart the carcasses and shit....
Another one I had was that I got trapped inside this old weird gym/YMCA type place, it was like a old elementary school gymnasium, and i had to stay there overnight cuz there was a bad snow storm, and we were smoewhere in like buttfuck pennsylvania....And when i looked, there was these paintings on the wall. ...and when i looked closer, every single one of them was like a normal painting, except hidden in it somewhere, was pained a brutal murder scene...Like, a scene of kids riding to school on a school bus, when u looked in the back window, u could see a gunman blowin the kids heads off with a shotgun and the blood exploding against the back window, etc shit like that. And i started gettin a really bad feelin cuz i realized that the kids was all evil, and i was trapped there and had to get out cuz they planned to make al those pictures real, and kill me too, so i finally managed to excape and get away, except as i was driving, i looked in my backseat, and one of the "evil paintings" was somehow in the car with me and i realized it meant that i was gonna die either way, but then i woke up before i died.
Here is a freaky-ass one that bugged me out at the time...I was at smoe kind of party with this old-ass blues man. He was like , 65 years old, really old time southern blues mutha fucka. he was like my dream version of like Muddy Waters or somethin. well i was sittin next to him on a bench and talkin about music, but then i felt this warm, wetness on my leg......and i looked down, and the bench was COVERED with hot, gushing blood,,, somehow, the area of his entire groin, dick and balls, and the inside of his thigh halfway down to his knee, had been completely RIPPED off, and it was just this giant, open, bloody gushing hole of exposed muscles and veins where his leg and groin shoulda been...And he just kept bleedin out, gettin weaker and weaker, and dying, and somehow his mom appeared (she was 45, and white, lol, wtf?) and seh wanted ME to save him, im like lady i dont even KNOW this dude, and she wouldnt call 911 or help put a tourniquet on or ntohign and jsut wanted me to help him not die.....
I could go on postin for days and days. I have some fucked UP dreams, all the time. And the funny thing is that i dont watch fucked up shit on TV. I aint into all that gore shit. Like i aint AFRAID of it, i dont go out of my way to avoid it, but i just never been the type of person who watches movies with a lot of really explicit gory nasty violence, i dont evne watch the operations when i watch House, u feel me? I dont put alot of violent disturbing type of images in my head, i refse to even watch Saw or Hostel or none of those type of movies...So i dont knwo where this shit comes from....especialy cuz I aint stressted out at all, I feel really happy and matter fact i feel less depressed and happier than i ever felt in my entire life, life is GREAT...but i always stay havin these CRAZY ass super violent gorey ass dreams.....Sometimes Im gettin brutally murdered, sometimes I am killin or hurting other people in self defense, (its never for a reason other than self defense tho) and sometimes its just fucked up weird ass scenes , but irs always some fucke dup shit.
I aint on no medications or nothing except methadone. i dont take no sleeping pills, vitamin supplements for sleep, no melatonin or htp or gaba or none of that shit. I dont drink or smoke cigs or soke weed or do no drugs, and i aint for a very long time, over a year for not smokin weed, and i aint use recreational drugs in 5 monts.
SO, im sorry i cant offer u answers, but i can at least tell u that u aint alone, becuz even before i was prego, i would be havin some fucked the fuck up dreams like everydamn night. I kinda just roll with it now and be like WTF? That shits crazy. O well, it aint real, time to wake up. Sometimes i do have a dream thats so disturbing that it upsets me even when i am still awake and i feel all weird and uncomfortable but thats rare--becuz i have these dreams SO much and it been happenin for so long, im learnin to just dismiss them and not even pay them no mind. i hope u can get to that point too and not be too freaked out by em, they only dreams, and over time u will just be able to laugh and be like, haha,, wow, my brain is just crazy.
I hope it gets better, like seriously.
